Today I’m linking up with katessaysstuff for Thankful Thursday.
Remember the microwave meal advertisements, “Are you looking after yourself?”. I hope my Dad doesn’t ask me soon, because if I said, “Yes, Dad, I’m looking after myself”, I would be lying. When I first found out that it was Adrenal Fatigue that was making me feel so crappy, I was all “Right, I’m changing everything, I’m getting healthy, I’m going to get better”. And I did change some things:
- no alcohol (well just a few sips here and there)
- no coffee/caffeine
- tried to give up chocolate (still failing by the way)
- started taking vitamin supplements to support my adrenals and boost serotonin
- kept up regular Pilates
- tried to sleep more
- lowered my standards re housework (this is a little counterproductive though as it stresses me out)
Guess what? I started feeling better. Then I started to slip. I ran out of supplements and didn’t restock straight away. I got out of the habit of taking them and kept forgetting. I slipped back into eating sweet things when I felt bad. I found it harder to resist a glass of wine if CrashHubby had a really really good one to try. I’m finding it harder to get out of bed again, harder to keep my cool with the kids, harder to get out and about. I want to go back into hibernation. I forget to drink enough water. I hide my neglected hair under a hat. It took me way too long to do something about my yeti-like legs. I don’t eat enough fruit (usually because the kids get to it first). Money I used to spend on skincare, haircuts etc gets swallowed by our voracious mortgage. So, no, I’m not really looking after myself.
Why does this happen? I’m thinking it’s because like any change, the bigger it is, the harder it is to take on. My doctor warned me that I wasn’t going to get better in a matter of weeks. It took a really difficult year to wear myself out. I’m starting to think it might take the same amount of time to start feeling ok again.
But let’s look at the positives, the things I can actually be thankful for:
My blog has done wonders for my confidence and motivation. The blogging community is something for which I’m really thankful. My crash tests are helping me get more organised which makes it easier to get through the day to day grind without losing it – well, mostly ;). When readers leave comments it makes my day. It might seem like a small thing, but in comparison to scraping god knows what off the floor for the umpteenth time, it is a nice distraction!
Summer is just around the corner. It’s easier to feel happy when you’re not freezing. It’s easier to feel happier when the sun is smiling back at you. It’s easier to feel happier when you get out amongst mother nature, which I intend to do as much as possible of this summer.
So, I guess I am doing ok. I realise now that I need to start thinking of myself a little more. Take a little more care. Watch this space.
What are you thankful about today?